him.

…sambungan
yeah.. bout post yg lepas .. kita sambung lg sket.. bout a guy dat i found kt KMPk. The guy that i knew through my roomate back then. The guy that i secretly admired. And he’s no longer nobody but somebody for me~

Kau cinta pertamaku
Kau cinta terakhirku
Tiada apa yang bisa
Menafikan kasih kita

Kau ayu di mataku
Satu antara seribu
Tiada tara di dunia

Mungkin kan terputus di tengah jalan
Mungkin kan terlerai tanpa ikatan
Usah ragu dengan takdir

Kau ayu di mataku
Satu antara seribu
Tiada tara di dunia

Mungkin kita kan berbeza haluan
Berakhirnya cerita percintaan
Segalanya ketentuan Tuhan…

Dedicate this song to him… lyric memang meaningful.. by Aiman.. hurm.. klau dgr dengan penoh emosi… pasti menages wey.. x sedo ayor mate dah kuor XD hahahaha.. tu dia ayat.. hehe..

Tp betul la.. we never know wat future brings us.. can’t predict exactly wut and when n why.. kite hanya mampu merancang, hanya Dia yang menentukan.. lagu ni memang terkesan la kat hati sdey.. hurm.. watever it is.. doa bnyk2 for things tat we want dari sekarang dgn bersungguh2.. InsyaAllah Dia mendengar rintihan hati kita~

So, bout this boy.. hurm.. just a simple guy.. and yet complicated la jugak.. hoh.. dari segi fizikal nampak mcm smart [ kekadang] tp [selalu] nmpk serabai je.. haha.. he said dat he like to be serabai.. dan sudah menjadi kebiasaan bagi dier mandi sekali sahaja dalam sehari [itu ppun nseb mndi en..XD] mula2 dlu mcm xleh trima tp lame2..hah, lantak ko la.. asalkan ko x busuk sudaa XD tp x elok la babe, even bdn xde bau ke ape, still kne mandi maa.. bru rse fresh.. otak dan penampilan pun x serabai sgt.. muka nmpk fresh sket drpd tak mannn.. hahaha.. his dressing sume simple je,yet sexy! haha,.. no! jst he likes to wear v-neck shirt.. and striking color gitu.. hoh.. [sebok je tiru org ske color2 gitu XP] and appear to be bauless all e time.. haha.. dgn quite nerd specky face naek trun fakulti, bgunan akademik dan juga kuar msuk g THE MINES! hahaha.. gitu la dier penampilanye.. tambah lagi nk jadi org muzik ni, lagi dasyat la agaknye.. hoh.. and 1 more thing bout him yg mmg agak pelik tapi haha..hahahaha.. every time makan he has a routine taw.. kne bukak his so-called-thing-kat-atas-lelangit-yang-i-luper-gler-nama-dier-rite-now tu.. huh.. tp lama2 biase dah.. i’m not segan to say that kdg2 he’s quite x senonoh XD well, so do i.. i’m not behaving like a normal gadis rite? hahaha.. for e burping especially.. hehe [janji dpn parents i won't do that XD]

well, bout appearance tu je kowt yg mampu nk elobrate,bnyk lg tp nk lbey2, knal sndri! hahaha XP now bout his inside pulak..

First of all..Dier EMO!!! x macam lelaki laen.. istimewa sket dier nih.. [mcm knk2 istimewa lak XD] stahu aku la, lelaki ni diorang jnis yg keras kepala, ego.. tp dis guy mcm special sket.. perasaan hati jiwa dan raga dier mcm mudah tersentuh.. i like! mayb lelaki len pun cmtu tp tunjuk.. kan3?? huu..ade pros and cons nye..sape yg dapat laki camni, kre btuah la jgk korang.. sbb diorang mcm paham la jgk apa yyg kite rse.. they be in our shoes.. sng berunding n settlekan masalah.. yg penting, tak ego! kan tp klau ak emo, dier pun emo gak.. tu yg payah sket.. tp kdg2 it turn to be a lawak thing.. yela klau i suppose to merajuk, lama2 i pulak yg kne mengalah n pujuk dier blek.. hahahaha.. adoi..

tears is not a sign of weakness.. and yup.. dlu slalu tgk his teardrops.. tp skrng x dah.. dah jd jantan wey.. hahaha.. but me, still me.. menanges is one of the way to puaskan my hati yg x puas.. kdg tu xde sebab pun boley nanges.. zafirah2.. ish2 ;P best! heee..

hurm.. few words for him if he reads this post.. em,
i hope you are doing fine with festik,mmmr, fiesta colorful and etc.. i know u r busy and yet still hv time to spend time wif me even skejap,tp ckup to tell me tat i’m one of the important piece in ur life puzzle.. still hv lots of things, lots of time to go through smpai graduate.. bnyk lg halangan yg kte sndri x tahu ape yg akan jd one day.. we don’t know how we wud end up.. dgn u akan tuka course next sem insyaAllah.. tmbh lg stahun.. hm.. just so u know tat watever things dat u do, u have my full support! serious besar.. selagi i mampu, i tolong.. bout agama, i know i’m not really bagus to guide u anywhere but i’ll share with evrything yg i mampu want to have a hubby yg can guide me and be my leader in everything in future.. want to be a faithfull servant for Him and also a good wife to my teman hidup.. hurm..

[suddenly lagu Aiman berkumandang lagi..]

cant imagine my life without you.. must be dull, and dry.. hoh.. thanks for everything gemok.. for sponsoring my ice-creams when my lust of them rises! hahaha.. almost everyday kowt mkn ais kerim! td nseb je peti ais tu disfunction n ice cream sume plak tu cayo.. dan2.. XD and sorry 4 being emo lately.. hormone unstable XD till then~ ily:)

‘Grow old with me, the best is yet to be’

sincerely;

SharifahZafirahSyedWahid
Setiausaha Kehormat
Persatuan Kanak2 Hebat
upm XD

P/s : DON’T TOUCH MY EPIDERMAL LAYER. please.

topsy-turvy!

what do i expect from u,
its hard for me to accept the truth,
that i’m not the only one in your heart,
there’s a sweetheart in ur memory,
tht breaks my heart when u told me,
the moments shared between u n she.

i want nothing fm u,
jst ur heart n soul will do,
ur tease, ur move makes me blue,
i cried inside coz i love you,
and now tht i knw i can’t hv u..

i had enuf for wut u did,
thnx for the sweet moments shared,
yes,the small thing were big to me,
i thot it would b easier,
for me to forget u if life’s getting busier,
dear i won’t forget u till i’m 7feet under..
now tht i rest in peace,
away frm world full of bitc*

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did u knw tht i’m jealous,
i’m creeping,i’m yelling,
i cried inside telling myself tht u still luv her,
but yet idk either u get me,
coz u seems to tell me innocently,
telling bout u n her,
shit,did u knw it hurts me?
i feel likes i’m nothing,
am i e place 4 u to take revenge?
am i jst a person to cmfrt ur heart?
it keeps on bothering me,
u still thinking bout her each days,
u told me tat u hate her,
i fact i knw u’re still hoping,
and regreting things u did..
but babe i’m not a piece of heart,
not the heart u can play with,
now, b4 everything gets hard,
step aside.
if u meant to hurt me,
coz ily n nothing i can do,
nothing i can say,
to mke u frgt her.
i need sum attention.
i need sum love.
i need sum care.
do i demand a lot?

i knw u love,
i knw u care,
but u did it to me n her.
yeah, i’m being paranoid.
come on, basic feelings surrounds me,
and again i stressed it,
u did it to me n still her!

bila zafirah bnyk berfikir :((

assalamualaikum semua. shit. i feeel like shit. warrrrrrghh~

sume ni psal kkc laa.. haiya.. kkc, klo ko ade rmbut mcm azeem, lme da ak tarik smpai cabut!

the test previously was oukay, tp the interview just now was like damn. y everyone seems to b annoying n hell yeah, aku emo dgn korang. oukay mengikut perasaan sgt zafirah ni ha. yes i am. wey, ak x lyk msuk kkc. i noe. cehs padahal td confident ckp layak. haha. shit. ak tipu! lol..  EMO!EMO!EMO! zafirah gets annoyed today. terase pissed off. apsal la emosi ak ni kaco sgt ni. haih. lek ar pear,. intrview je. sheep. i perform better in intrvw jpa kowt! nervous like hell.. no .. not really.. mncabar minda betol. sorry ar bro amir, u looks so cute! haha. no! kidding. ak geram tgk korang sume td. ye. sumpah! rse  nk gigit sorang2. felo pun same. omg. i know u already married la mdm..yeke?cnfident je. haha. tp ak rse ak pnah tgk ank dier kt kc. wtv. zafirah punye emosi x stabil. dri ptg td dah. tetibe emo! sorry babe.  if u can tolerate wif my unstble emotion, then stay. if not., try to adapt. or change me not to b 1. or u may leave. haih.. tgk.. emo lg. shit. my tears only last inside d eyes for 2 days only. then u start to drop urself again. ouh tears.. syg sket dri ko tu. jgn pt jtuh. klau dh jtuh tu, bgun la sndri. ni nk sruh org tulun pujuk n angkt plak.,.. apehal?? b matured. pkir dlu sblum jatuh. berbaloikah? ye. skrng ak rse berbaloi sbb ak tension ni wey. pressure to neck to head! high pressure. mahu mngadu kt org tp org tga bz2 sume. hm.. xpe. ak syg ko belog. dats y ak tlis. permenant lg tuh. ily belog.. muah2 sket.. XD

oukay ak rse ak dah gilaaa! ye. ak skt kpala since ptg td. dah sronok sgt men smpai lupa ak skt. ni la padahnnye. ko tanggung la skrng sorang2. hm. sakit jgn la tarik2 my urat kepala ni ha.. sakit denyut3.. n ak lappaa la belog. x mkn dinner. lunch lme dh digest tgh hri td.  skrng ak senang lapa weyh. musim2 fertile ni mmg cmni. sheep. ak rse nak mkn kuey tiaw tom yam kc. pergh. hilang panas! haha. ckp psal panas, ak tga pns ni:( rse cm nk dmm da.. tula td gatai men active sgt. dah la esk kuiz prtanian. n yet ak bru bce 2 page je. sheep!.

i hate myself. i want to b d old zafirah. the 1 who didn’t care bout others. the one who was always happy go lucky. always focus on herself. i miss my study style. ouh i want me 3years back. struggling hard, hard n  hard till d very end smpai la spm! wey, mne pegi ak yg rjin study, yg rjin jmpe ckgu tnye soaln, yg rjin stay up smpai pagi, yg slalu bgun at dawn, mne pegi solat hajat sume? eeeeeeeeeee…. emoooooooooo. mne ak yg dlu?? skrng ni i hv sooo many bad qualities. shit! shit for myself! skrng kt universiti, zafirah mnjadi semakin malas. semakin enjoy. semakin bebas. xde siape pun tegur. xde siape pun nak nasihat. everyone stands by their own

ak nak sgt kwn2 mcm skola mngh dlu. remind each other. nk sgt ckgu2 yg caring. kt cni pensyarah lain giler. ‘ko dtg,ak lyn,. ko x dtg, lantak la kau’ lbey kurang cmtu la prinsip diorang yg ak phm. hm.. ape nk jadi dgn ko zafirah?? exam lagi seminggu. gtaw skt ape yg ko da bce? ape yg ko dah phm? boley ke jwb essay titas knegaraan n h.e?? dah hebaat sgt ke? sume fakta dah hafal? yg fizik,dah phm sume konsep? ykin bley jwb sume? x revise lg kan? da try jwb soalan? bley ke bwat sume? yg kimia pulak..mmg la mostly ko a blaja kt mtrik. tp ko ingt ke ape yg ko phm? insyaAllah ingt sikit kan. tp ble dpt soalan, ko ykin bley jwb? klau dier putar2 sket, msti ko gabra kan? ni exercise da ckup belom?? x ckup kan? xbwat bnyk mne pun kan? stdy la mangkok! zafirah! ko ni knape? i dunno either. y ak pressure myself ni?????????? ye. i shud coz no one seems to care. but i do care of mysself. xley depends on anyone la zafirah. stnd by ur own. ko kne sedar sndiri. siape yg nk sedar kan ko sruh blajo? ak la. haih. n yet ak xdpt lg mud study yg btul2 stdy tu.

ak rse mcm nk banned je fb ni!! boley x anyone banned ak drpd login fb.?? shit. melalaikan sungguh. n yet still bukak kan.. pe la ko ni zafirah. haish. lagha.. zafffffffiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! wey, sedar la sikit. tapi ko nak 3.5 above? cmni ke cara dier??? sheeeppp.. ape ak ni. . ak rse dah nkmental dh ni. tolong!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YES. I KNOW. I THINK TO MUCH. WALK YOUR TALK LA ZAFIRAH!!! PKIR JE LBEY. BWAT XNK. START LA WEY.. TOLONG LA ZAFIRAH. APE DAH NK JD NI???????

i think i think to much.

n i hate it

sumtimes it is gud for me, but now. NO!

waaa:(

tolong:(

emo lg ;(

eeeeeeeeeeeeee~

gerammmmmm…

EMOTIONALLY FREAKING UNSTABLE. sekian

Ouh Allah. am i too far from u?

i’m now crying for Your guidance.

i’m now craving for Your help.

i’m now wanting Your hidayah.

i know i’m never be near to perfect.

i forgot You sometimes.

i let myself being washed by lust.

wake me up from all these dreams

zafirah.. tolongla zafirah Ya Allah. ((

;((

;( ssdey glerr.. lamer gler x rse cmni.. pnat nangis.. bengkak2 dh sume.. tension gler!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shit3!  ak benci ar! benci3!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! ;(( gler emo.. almst fainted!! what should i do? what could i do? kelar tgn! cry till late nite? need sum1 to cool me down… need a shoulder to cry on.. where r u ppl..?????? oukay i’m e 1 yg x cri u guys,yet hw u guys will know kn.. shit la ak! ( babe,i sdey;(( satu,satu, and another masalah dtg… emooo babe..

mum,sorry i switched off e phone.. high depression! can’t help it. sorry. i hv no intention to be rude or wut,. jst i’m waaaay depressed n feeling more than that nw. i thot i can hold it but i can’t. trillions tears dropped.  ……………………….

hm. babe..i’m not really good in expressing my thought, probs..don’t force me to.. its susa to put it in words. i knw it’ll cause u to feel disatisfied, trgntung, emo, wut else.. but i’ll surely akn gtaw if its not really privte or perhaps sumday u’ll noe. sure! hm.. i knw. my bad. but i need a shoulder to cry on, i need a person to listen to e pain, for i knw i can’t stand alone. i can’t handle it alone. need backup. y do my eyes can’t stop wasting d air2? zafirah!! control boley?? haih.. babe, i forgot to breath. ptut rse cm nk mati. cehs..

yet can feel some space of udara. fuuuuhh.. sabarlah wahai zafirah~ u r not alone insyaAllah.

fira redha je laaa~

LAPTOP AK HILANG!!

FULL STOP..cite nxt time ok..rite nw anda doakn agr pncuri tu insap la..x kesah dpt blek ke x laptp tu,..jst hope org yg curik tu jmpe ak sblm ak atau dier mati.. Sekian..ak sedih tahap 160GB ;( waaaa~~

random~

emo. pffttt ;P

grrrr…

u r  ANNOYING,dude..

yeahh…damn hot..m sweatng ere..

wtv u said~lalala…

btw,the ‘tounge out’ really pissed me off..

i dnt gv a damn..HAHAHA[evil 1]

dvlish at d mmnt; I

*note : 1 new ctgry was added…pissed off!!yeah..i get annyed 2day!!