sigh..

sometimes i hate myself.
sometimes i love myself.
sometimes i am stupid.
sometimes i am smart.
sometimes i feel regret.
sometimes i feel glad.

confusion.

bidadara malam kah kamu??

i have a pen,

my pen is ungu,

i have a man,

my man is KAMU!

hehehe XD

loads of luv;
miss-no-longer-alone-

Q: bidadara malam kah kamu?? wujud ke?
A: ya. wujud untuk zafirah sahaja… hahaha

hidup!

“The first person who’s on your mind on the moment you open your eyes after a long sleep is the reason either of your happiness or pain.”

SELAMAT PAGI DUNIYA!

ouh fira..tabahlah wahai hati~

assalamualaikum dan selamat sejahtera diucapkan pd hadirin dan hdirat sekalian..ahaha..

aishh..hm..ok la..dis time..i really hv no 1 to talk..and belog ini mnjd mangsa..ape la nsib ko blog..jd tmpt ak meluah2 segala isi perut dan isi hati limpa sume..ahaha..ok2..erm,sprti yg djnjikn,previous post,ak nk cte psal my future kn..ni dia~~

huhu..twaran kmsukan ke IPTA..hm..its my 4th or 5th choice if not mistaken..not like i expect..but what do i expect..durrrr….result pun x sberape,nk kos yg hebat..pe la..no way fira..dis one pun kire ok..Food tech..??drpd got nothing..hm…myb itu takdir ko..xley nk watpe..ko shud trime seadanya..remember..things happened for reasons..mesti ader silver lining punye..pasti got hikmah disebalik setiap perkara..this is what hd been around in my mind few while..no use of crying..let bygone,b bygone…yup..always comforting myself dgn positve things..

okay..talk about feeling..yea..there’s frustration inside..sigh..hm..i was hoping for another course..n yet..hurm..klau nk cite psal kwn2 laen,sdey jgk..rmai yg dpt kos best2 lg..rzki masing2 kn..xnk ckp psl org len la..dh la pear..x gune ko sdey2..tp tu la..hm..mmg ak slalu doa Allah bgi ak yg terbaik..tp..ak sdar yg ak bkn slalu bgi yg terbaek for Dia..kdg2 ade jgk trlps wktu..,lalai leka ngan fatamorgana dunia ni..terlmpau ikut nfsu..tp Allah itu Maha Pengasih lg Maha Penyayang..Dia sentiasa bkk pintu taubat untk hamba-Nya..dan sekarang ni..ak perlu yakin yg Allah ade perancangan len untk ak..x smstinye ape yg kite nk tu,bek tuk kite n sbliknye..kite hanya merancang..tp Allah tntukn..

its ok la fira..few tears je okay..

ouh psal parents pulak, at first my mum like tunjuk reaksi yg negative ble taw psal dis upu thingy..food tech??huh..myb kos ni mmg x femes pun..myb she expect more..indeed..mmg pun..sorry mak..hm..sdey2..mak ayh mne x nk tgk anak nye bjye..mungkin ade di lubuk hati mak ayh tu cm kesal kot..sbb x dpt mdic…aduh..high hope la..hm..tp ak doa jgk yg ak bley bwk kos ni..n mak pun cn accept dat..thank you mak sbb memahami..sobs2..

bnyk kli mak ade pesan..waaaa..sdey2..dier sruh blja leklok..klau bleh nk 4flat or 3.7 above la kt u nnt..hm..jgn main2..klau rslt ok,sng mntk keje..btul2..rse sebak btul..hm..n ade jgk mulut yg berbisa tu mengutuk2 kos ak ni ha..hm..tp mak ak saba je..org cmtu xpyah lyn mak..ckp besar je taw..thank you mak sebb membela nsib ankmu mu ini..aceceh..jiwang sket..xpe la..bkn slalu..huhu..buat mak and ayah..thank you sgt2..bnyk duit kowt nk pkai msuk u ni..adui..upm 2307ringgit malaysia weyh..famly ak ni bkn la famly yg kaya raya..ala kadar je..xsng pun nk mkn ayam tiap2 hari,..xley la nk beli ipod touch yg beribu2 tu..xde la nk mlncong smpai ke hong kong or beijing..tp ak ttp happy sbb keperluan  asas sume ade..syukur sgt klau nk dbndingkn ngan org palestin gaza sume..huhuhu..boleh kate ak puas hati la dgn ape yg ak ade..leh on9 ni pun dh kire untung..ade jgk org len xmampu lg..Alhamdulillah atas ape yg ak ade..

disini ak petik sket Steve Job’s speech..he’s d 1 yg initiate PIXAR animation tu..toy story best oo…haha..here it goes~

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma, which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice, heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.”

bgi ak it is quite meaningfull..lets ponder..bnyk point kt ctu..huhu..

okay larh belog..ak nk cite lg tp kesuntukan masa..nnt i update lg okay..tata dear~

masa hadapan :/

serba serbi serban serbun sabun bygn terhdp masa hadapan bersama senior setahun tua drpd sy di halaman chatting..ngaaaaa~

Me : ouh masitah~
salam..hee..
Mashie : haha
iye2
ada ape??? hehe

Me : upm,upm..
msth sme ngn akmm kn?
Mashie : wut2????
x phm
long story plis
haha
Me : haha..
jap..
1st..
em,.
haha..
msth kos sme ngn akmm kn?
Mashie : amende nih???
Me : slh org ke ni..

[ak pun x phm apsal cam bengong je awl2 ni..hahaha]

huhu..
Mashie : x2
haha
chat fb bengong laaa
jap2
zafer pn dpt upm gak ke
Me : ha,..btul2..
Mashie : hoooyeaahhh~~
haha
cos??????
Me : sme ngan akmm~

[kkk angkat sy:)]

hahaha..
Mashie : ceit
Me : lalala~~
Mashie : tru ktorg
haha
Me : da dpt yg tu nk wat cmne..
Mashie : zafer kne dftr ble
Me : 3rd julai..
ni yg nk tnye sket ni..best x?
Mashie : eh,jap
kolej mne
Me : haha..
kolej canselor..wujud ke klj nme tu?haha..

[bengong..haha..]

dier tlis cmtu..
Mashie : hoho
wujud laaa dek oi
hmm
best mmg best
but dis cos tough laaa dek
i remind u awl2
klo nk maen2 xyah laa amek cos ni
huhu
Me : yke..hm..tough ke?cm senang..npe susa?
nsht sket..huhu..
Mashie : hmm
cmne ekh nk ckp
actly kos ni ni lbeh krang je ngan biotech
but dier more detail laaa
focus more to fud
kre cm lg mendalam laaa
huhu
nme cos je nmpk cm sng
but then ble dh join tau laa cmne resenye
eheheheheheehehehe
=P=P

[dpt byngkan muka sinis mashie~huuu]

Me : wah..mcm suatu ancaman je..
huhuhu..
kasi la galakan yg mmbrngsngkn sket..
lmh smgt den
hehe..
Mashie : huhu
dun wori laaa dek
kte blaja je
yg laen2 2 tawakkal
Allah kn ade
=)=)
lgpun jgn lemah sebelum berjuang
huhu
actly masitah bru pas tension nagn my 1st result yg cm hampagas ni
tp x pe
stil de byk mse nk back up
huhu
pray 4 our success in dis cos ekh dek
Me : btul2..ok..insyaAllah..
life kt sne bz x?
Mashie : depends on urself laaa
klo rajen join xtvt bz laaa
klo x……
jd pbsm je laaaa
haha
Me : haha..ain ckp hostel n fakulti jauh?
ke?
nek basikal?
kne bwk bsikal sndiri x?ngee..
Mashie : haha
bdak ni
babab kang
haha ain mne plak ni
hmmm
bas ade laaa kt sne
x yah nek beskal
wat busuk ketiak je
haha
=P=P
Me : haha..heee..
em,ain dpu UPM jgk!!
yaey2~~
haha..
Mashie : ain mne ni???
die cos pe???
Me : azidah ain azizan,kwn saye tu..
heee..
Mashie : ahahahah
so best laaaa korg
de senior tkc
leh mntx notes
haha
Me : hehe..masitah,zfr book masth pnye note lar cmni..
ok??
haha..
ktrng bdak matriks perak..rmai jgk kt upm..
Mashie : serius
hmmm
nnt kte wat cmpng kt sne ek
haha
ow
nk my notes
bleh aja
aik
kt kakak sendirik xmau mntak ke
ehehehehe
=P=P
Me : owh,.akmm pun zfr nk jgk!!ckp kt dier k..
huhu..tamak btul..
haha..
ksi tnjuk ajr kt junior ni ye..
Mashie :
hahhahahaha
Me : ngee..
tq ye akk
Mashie : no hal laaa
msth pn x perfect mne laaa dek oi
stdy pn tunggang langgang
eheheheheh
=P=P
Me : ngee..xde la..at least nnt zfr leh refer sket2 ngn msth kn..hee..
skrng kt u ke,kt umah?
Mashie : kt umh
heeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~
=)=)
ktorg blek upm 11 july
a week after korg
korg kn ade orentasi
ngeeeeeee~~~
Me : ok2..time kasih daun keladi~

nk taw ak dpt kos ape?tggu nxt ‘special’ post kay~

mmuaah2..

hv u ever been in love??

L.O.V.E~

It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest
and it opens up your heart
and it means that someone
can get inside you and mess you up.
You build up all these defenses,
you build up a whole suit of armor,
so that nothing can hurt you,
then one stupid person,
no different from
any other stupid person,
wanders into your stupid life…
You give them a piece of you.
They didn’t ask for it.
They did something dumb one day,
like promise you or smile at you,
and then your life
isn’t your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
It eats you out and
leaves you crying in the darkness,
so simple a phrase like
‘maybe we should be just friends’
turns into a glass splinter
working its way into your heart.
It hurts.
Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It’s a soul-hurt,
a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
hate love.

The past may hurt,
but you can either run from it…
Or learn from it,..:)

judge the book buy its cover~

lalala~..hahah..xtaw la apsal the title cmtu..but…

4 certain cases,we hv to aite??hahaha..wtv..lol..

erm2……bosannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn..yup…..

bosaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaann…huuuu..

erm,things inside my mind are~

• azidah’s bday
• p.s i luv u
• alkane
• isopropyl
• los dan faun
• B.U.M
• no pain
• no gain
• bored
• open office
• gene tech.
• hot
• cancer
• alone
• farmville
• our song
• you’re not sorry
• hatred
• shy
• demanding
• get lost
• yan
• flow
• beating
• shut down..